Saturday, April 30, 2005
5:05 PM
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Sometimes, people make mistakes and they repent and make amends. Sometimes, people just keep making the mistakes and never repent

For fairness, requires you to have the courage to be truthful, especially when it's the hardest, to do so. Otherwise, the only fairness that you will ever achieve is the false one, in your own delusionary world. Cowardice in life, is a passport to failure.

It's hit me instantly when I read those words.How true it was.The moment we realize what we did was wrong we actually have an obligation to ourselves to bravely realize and try to change.The more you trying to buy some times to change what was wrong the more damage you've done to yourself.The thing is, in this fast moving world time is so expensive to waste.If you happen to have your life carefully planned you should be fair to yourself or all that you planned will be flush down the drain.

The analogy of a bread and fungus is a good referal to this situation.Once we see the fungus on the bread we should immediately remove the infected parts or else it will spread out and at the end the whole bread will be covered with fungus,damaged,poisonous and bring harm to anyone who try to consume it.

No one wants a life like a fungus breeding bread.So do I.

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Monday, April 25, 2005
4:05 PM
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Pernah terdetik dalam hati bahawa arah yang dituju itu bukanlah sebanar-benar arah yang diingini.Jalan indah dan luas yang di lalui itu bukanlah sebenar-benar arah yang ingin di lalui.Mungkin jalan belukar sempit dan kecil itu lebih selesa dari jalan luas terbentang.Sesaat itu kita menilai kembali pada letak utama maksud kehidupan yang ingin kita lakarkan.Benarkah selama ini itu semua yang diigini?Atau jauh di sudut hati sesungguhnya bukan itu semua yang utama tetapi ada sesuatu yang maha berharga yang selama ini di pinggirkan.Maka renungkan kembali jauh didalam hati.Nilai kembali satu persatu,setiap untaian perasaan yang ada dalam jiwa dah carilah kembali kebenarannya apakah yang sebanarnya yang di cari dalam hidup ini.Status?Darjat?Kekayaan?Harta?Ketenangan?Kasih sayang?Keredhaan ibubapa?Keredhaan Allah yang Maha Pengasih?
Moga-moga keputusan yang diambil dari pintaan ku kekuatan dari kekuatanMu,kelebihan dari kelebihanMu yang banyak,dan dari kekuasaanMu memberikan satu sinar baru dalam kehidupan.

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Sunday, April 24, 2005
1:28 PM
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My favourite quotes for today...

In life we are juggling with 5 balls.Health,family,belief and social life balls are made of glass.It's very fragile and can easily be broken but the fifth ball are made of rubber; the job ball.No matter how many times it fall, it will bounce back.

What happen to my rubber ball?Yada yada yada.
Hopefully my decision-making skill is still reliable.

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Saturday, April 16, 2005
2:50 PM
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Dear Lin,

It never had cross my mind that you would endure such terrible loss at a very young age.I've lost my valuables before then I wept and cried but your lost was beyond compare.What I felt was just a very small fraction of the one you confronted with.Losing your 2 months old baby that you love and adore every single moment was not and easy thing to go through.
The few minutes that I share with Shakir in ICU of KL General Hospital had already bring me to tears.Watching that small fragile body of a baby,all those wires hanging around his bed,it was more than I could handle.I braved myself to look at him and watched his breathing as he sleep (Shakir was in coma after the 2 operations).I must be strong.It's all for you my friend.
I recieved the news late evening while I was working.I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you.I was out of town working for a week.But I know for a fact that most of our friends had been able to be there for you.I heard what happen outside the ICU when they brought him out.I cried.It was unbearable for me and I know you have a very good reason to act that way.I do.
As a friend the most that I could offer is my shoulder for you to cry on.I might not be able to imagine exactly how you feel inside right now.The pain,the suffering,the memories of 2 months with a perfectly healty baby boy.Embrace those happy tought.Please..and please my friend I beg you..please be strong!

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