Wednesday, September 28, 2005
5:35 AM
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My laptop on stike.Everything was so slow. To open a worksheet takes me more than 60 seconds rather than 2.Hang every now end then. Herm...I wonder it because of Kazaa that I install secretly last week but immediately remove after a few attempt to used it or perhaps Limewire that makes me love P2P and makes me act like a 5 years old girl in a candy shop. I wonder. Could be all those spyware that comes together with all this internet freeware and stick to my registery.Aiyoo...don't tell me I have to revamp my laptop!

Checking e-mail everyday hoping that my application got through so I don't have to redo my bank draft that cost me a fortune since it was in pound and waiting for respond from education unit telling me I was registered to Sunway University College instead of PAAC.Please make it Sunway coz it much nearer to my home.

Then a friend called me and said," It's true. My company is giving me away six months bonus end of month." As I was dodging after-work drivers on Jalan TAR yesterday, I could not help but shout out back, Congratulations!so you can used that money for your wedding end of this year!Lucky you! and I freaking hate you! In silent.FYI, I don't hate you just your pocket.

I more than determine to join that company in 3 years time. Come one 3 years pass me by quickly!!

p/s - Jusco anniversary sales sampai 2 oktober.Time to update my working wardrobe! My dear fat-pocket friends give me some allowance!

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
7:26 AM
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Tuna sandwich and hot coffee with x-tra creamer.

I'm back in my comfort zone. No more rushing, jam cramp. I arrived early to the office and have ample of time walking around and choose any cubicle as I please. I'm back in my own territory surrounded by people in natural and pinstripe shirt. Is it? I still think I suit more in server room or data centre but that already beside the point.

This posting could be so self-absorbed so please bear with me.Te-he-he
As I sit in this corner where half of my face hides behind laptop, I peek around. It hit me. What have I become?

At the age of 7 when we have to fill up personal report card, we were given 3 blanks space to write down our ambition. Mine was:

Year 1 Teacher Lawyer Lecturer
Year 2 Lawyer Lecturer Doctor
Year 3 Doctor Lawyer Lecturer
Year 4 Surgeon Pediatrician Veterinarian
Year 5 Surgeon Pediatrician Veterinarian
Year 6 Surgeon Pediatrician Veterinarian

At the age of 13, I am already so very confident that I am going to be in medical field. I was more than happy to be accepted to a science school. My chances of pursuing my dream becoming bigger and bigger. To my surprise my confident level deteriorates as I become teenager. Being so indecisive during my confuse teenage year (15-17) I let circumstances get the best of me in all walks of my life. My fighting spirit equal to zero.
I follow what been decided for me without a fight. I came down too easily. I was never standing beside those who fight for their right to choose. When circumstances took its toll I realize that I already thrown myself into technical science not pure science.
I let people decide for me. Despite all that I am very sure that I would never take engineering. (See I told ya, I'm a one confuse kid!).
In university my confident level starts building up. I take IT instead and find pleasure in learning those alien languages and seeing the unseen. Buried behind computer screen was more pleasing than anything. The law, procedure and theoretical part of computer science and business were my cup of tea.
I was release in to the jungle of job market at an unimpressive time. Market was flooded with computer grads. It was no longer employee market. It was employer market. They can hand-pick anyone they like. I left hanging around and nearly drown because of unemployment. I was neither a programming gurus nor networking expert so my chances getting thinner and thinner.
I realize that my only knowledge won't get me very far.
So I took a step back, risking all I have, to venture into a rather unknown ground. It's feels like diving into the sea without known how. You could either drown and die or survive. It's 50-50
So I go through the reskilling process. With so little knowledge I jump into the real employment. Real job with real boss and real office politics. I feel so dumb yet so thrill on this new discovered ground. From there I learn more about myself. I realize the hard way that I make a big mistake! I can't succeed in this new ground if this is the road that I am going to take.
This time I stand up and fight. Fight for my freedom of choice. I took a big leap. I resigned. With the little knowledge that I gain there, I knew what I wanted to be. Back at square one. I go around the process once again and manage to settle with jobs that suit me. So here I am staring at my laptop behind this cubicles wandering how far I can go and grow here. I bet after 3 years I'll be if not good an impressive secretary,documenter,investigator,negotiator,planner,traveler,typist and decision maker.


Tomorrow is another day for this office girl.chiayo!!

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Monday, September 26, 2005
12:35 PM
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Black toad in the toilet bowl meets replication expert!

Back in office from client. Herm...a month really makes a different. Our cafe@10 finally looks habitable. My ED finally got his own office and my favourite place can no longer become mine. Some advisory guy occupied that place permanently.Now I am a nomad again.

I went to toilet and saw a black figure as the size of a fist in the bowl. It's look like a toad. I went out. Is that a toad? I went in again.Yela...It's a toad. Went out again. It couldn't be. How come a toad when up to 10th floor. I went in. Can what? Somebody or something could accidentally carry it to 10 floors. Could be the carpenter, the tea lady stroller or it clever enough to take the lift. I went out again. After contemplating all the possible reason I went out and wait for others. Toad stays Mua out!

Guess what? There was never a toad at the first place. It just that discoloration happen to that part of the bowl by what ever it is that I don't intent to know. It just fear that makes me jump to such conclusion. Silly silly me. For me toads are like Chucky!

Replicating databases after a month is a bad idea. It takes century to complete! While its replicating don't ever try to do any major job. It's going to hang and you probably end up loosing all your unsaved data. So I just stared at the screen and wandering which century that the replication going to finish. Is it 21st or 22nd? Ha-ha.

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Saturday, September 24, 2005
12:22 AM
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That won't kill you will make you stronger.

Hola Saturday~~it's so good when you came

This week was an OK week for me. Despite of driving to client HQ for meetings and backs I'm feeling great. It's a weird feeling though when head of XXX stood up, shake your hand and smile with respect to you.But I annoying when they don't takes you seriously. I know this is not a corporate statutory requirement for some industry but guess what it's a complementary to statutory audit! Penaakulan mantik = it's as important as statutory!

I know it's not a hot blogpost topic but what the hell, once a while I deserve to rant about my work life. Te-he-he

Okla.Friday always gonna be my happy day. I don't mind being stuck at work till 10pm++ as long as it's Friday. Because I know that I have 2 looonnng day to rest.

Hari nie nak pegi jalan TAR pastu Ampang pastu KLIA pastu *scratching my head

Happy weekends!

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Thursday, September 22, 2005
11:47 AM
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Posted + removed back.Kontroversi He-he

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2:32 AM
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Chocolate

Ni untuk awak?
Untuk saya?
Terima kasih *smile
Terima kasih jer?
Abis?
2 perkataan jer?
Hehe.oklah terima kasih banyak-banyak dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki
*grin
*grin

Chocolate jog a lot of memories. It not just mere energy booster nor just for lift-u-up-when-u-were-down thing. It’s more than that. Beside it significantly scientific proven that it good to combats and decrease risk for certain diseases it's play a significant roles in our life.

People give chocolate when you were down
People give chocolate to woo somebody
People give chocolate on special day
People give chocolate as token of appreciation
People give chocolate when you were down
People give chocolate during festive season
People give chocolate just to say hi
People give chocolate just want to say that I still remember you
People give chocolate to make receiver happy
People give chocolate because it’s the first things that cross their mind when they trying to find suitable present for someone.
People give chocolate to makes connection
People give chocolate because it’s an "in-thing" gift. Never outdated!
People give chocolate because it stills a good present although it is not perfume or Tiffany.

That why all the Hersheys, Cadbury, Van Houten tak pernah tutup kedai!

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
10:39 AM
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Sorting out ma priority

People said, never lets job drown you. 24-7 working is a big no-no. Reality is, sometimes work just consume too much of your energy to even left you enough for do anything else.
I really need to sort out my priority. Putting what first...first.
Herm, I need facial
I need holiday
I need Gavin DeGraw CD
I need yoga (really?) I need to swim

Don't get me wrong.I LUV my job!*wink

P/S = J-Card day OU.Can I still make it?Lets..go

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10:34 AM
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I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
Don't speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
Now I need you more than ever, I need you more than ever, now
You don't need it every day
But sometimes don't you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
We will spend it all at sea
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea

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Friday, September 09, 2005
4:53 AM
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A lifetime

A long time ago someone once told me that I'm stubborn. In that particular instance that person had get the fact wrong- at the age of 10 I am anything but that.

But over the year, I have learned to distinguish between stubborn and being firm. Stand up to what you believe with rational and concrete reason rather than making the whole world agreed to you although it is clear that you wrong. Being firm will only be good if it is coupled with tolerance, compromise and understanding. Hopefully whatever your believe is not at the expense of others.

5 years ago

Was in university and witness the progression of university magnificent buildings. On personal note, I used to spend a chunk of my time besides burning the midnight oil is to reminisce the past which is by now I know a total waste. Morally people learn from such mistake and progress. I confide myself to studies, friends, the network and TGV.Student life was such a cocoon!

1 year ago

First half of the year, I was on my final semester in university. While some of my friends worried sick of the stagnant in their love life I keep cool and set my objectives to finished school. I pushed that big chunk of our life a side temporarily. Spent most of the time with friends, foodhunting, movies, final project and food. Junk food and caffeine really get the whole of me.

Second half of it; I was rearranging my thought most of the time on what to do next. I finished my degree and getting stress out when most of my friends start getting jobs. I plan to continued study abroad specifically US which I believe not all the reasons of doing so was right. The stress did contribute to my decision. Life was full of wonder the more you plan the many options keep coming your way. And I have to makes lots of decision…opportunity cost really applies, phew!

Yesterday
Not like today. It was a little bit usual.

Tomorrow
Probably a little better than today. It's weekend man!

5 snacks I enjoy

- Keropok lekor
- Keropok kentang Wise
- Picnic bar
- Cempedak goreng
- Chicken salad (all type of salad with chicken)





5 songs I know the words to

- Picture of you by Boyzone
- Come Away with me by Norah Jones
- Anak Itik Tok Wi
- Apa Saja by KRU
- Because You Love Me – Celine Dion




5 things I would do with $100,000,000

- buy my dream house in Malaysia (stay with all the ppl that I love)
- stay at home and enjoy life.
- invest
- holidays
- Fulfilled my "what I must do in my twenties and thirties" list


5 locations I like to runaway to

- home...nak balik rumah!!
- Island - private island perhaps!!hehe kalo kaye la
- rumah opah
- Paris - but I have to learn French first la
- where I can stay in bed, and enjoy the rest of the day is good enough.

5 bad habits I have

- mengelamun/berangan
- Procrastinator
- TV person
- Sometimes forgetful esp. on small things
- Say wrong things on impulse


5 things I likes doing

- Reading
- Watching TV
- Bubble bath (the one just like Chandler having)
- Nothing
- Nothing



5 things I would never wear

- Short skirt
- Turban except after washing my hair.
- Four inch stiletto
- Striking color cloth
- Tatoos


5 TV shows that I like

- CSI: LV/Miami/NY
- Friends (no matter how many times I definitely laugh)
- SATC
- 3R
- Reality TV programme that is on at the moment. It's a combination of the pleasure of not using any brain cells plus watching people who are more stupid than myself


5 favourite toys

- Rabbit the rabbit which location is unknown
- Brown the bear
- My Nikon digicam
- Kelisa in blue,good for ciloks
- My baby to be -Samsung

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
4:44 PM
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The bi-annual dinner was great.

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Sunday, September 04, 2005
1:16 PM
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1/9/05
Sky of Love.
(What I do on Merdeka Day besides watching the parade...)

It is not a new movie though. I bought it because of Ken Chu *drooling* and Gigi Leung and also because the original CDs worth RM6.Subang Parade offer...It’s a sappy movie.Haha...I'm a sucker for romantic movie remember? It's slow and every scene was flooded with emotion. If you dislike PGL you probably don't like this one and Four Seasons, Lavender, and Turn Right Turn Left also.
It is a tale of two people from different century.Gigi Leung from 1981 and Ken Chu from 2002.Both of them studied in the same university. He was fascinated with HAM and shortwave and she by chance own one. Their friendship started when she answer his call. They planned to meet but both end up waiting for one another because they were waiting at different venue. Same time but one waiting in a rain and the other waiting under hot sun. Then they realize that they are in different time. The twist is they seem to be able to communicate through radio although they are in different time and without electrical power.Mmg tak logik la tapi hahaha...kate cerita fiksyen, ade kene mengena dengan full moon la pulak tue.They seem to have a very different view on love philosophy base on their years of differences. She believes in love and very stubbornly believes that love is when you could feel his/her presence even if him /her not around. Sometimes you don't have to have it to own it. But for Ken Chu love is trying to be the best of what other person wanted you to be. Is it the right love or not? Love is hard yet people long for love.
It seems that she always like her classmate in university and she has a good girlfriend whom she shares her fascination with.Upon chatting with Ken Chu via the radio she finally realize that Ken Chu is the son of the man she love and to her dismay also the son of her good friend. Circumstances has some how brought her friend and the man she love together after she realize it.
In her present time she makes a tough decision to let him go and hold one to the love she has.
In his present time he learned that love already is with him, only before... he looked with one eye closed.
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I have seen you before…
Keeping a straight face although your heart shattered
Walk away swiftly although inside your actually limping
Smiling sweetly to others when you actually frowning

I know you…
You tried so bad to act tough but your are not
You talk coolly but you tremble inside.
When he dumps you, you say its ok but it not.
When you long for something, you gathered your self and push it away
When you fail you are calm but inside like a tornado hits the ground

I know you, I know you, and I know you
You are in me,
In them,
In us
And in all.

-Iryani-

Tribute to all moms, ladies, women out there. Happy women’s day!
Ingat…respek diri anda, ambil masa untuk relaks, dan respon pada persekitaran
See you later, alligator, morning letter, and calculator

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