Sunday, August 27, 2006
4:24 PM
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Hujung minggu yang manis!





tambah manis....

saya kini sudah berlari separuh jalan.Last lap! :)

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Friday, August 25, 2006
9:17 AM
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Pernah atau tidak pernah?

Pernahkah kamu berlari sekuat kuat hati
Kamu tempuh segala yang memperlahankan kamu
Kamu tolak apa jua yang mendatang untuk memberi sedikit ruang pada sesuatu di hadapan

Pernahkan?
Pernahkan kamu rasa
Betapa hampa dan kecewanya bila larian kamu itu sia sia
Lebih sakitnya andai kita tiba tetapi lewat untuk sesaat dua
Dengan sisa kekuatan yang ada memandang ia berlalu

Pernahkan?
Rasa lemas dan lelah berlari
Dan takut kamu tiba lewat lagi

Oleh itu, saya sekarang sedang berlari dan berlari dan berlari
Janganlah saya lewat lagi~

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
3:13 PM
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Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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Thursday, August 03, 2006
2:42 PM
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Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

And I know a man who lost his wife,
This is the way he chooses to describe his life,
He says, "If I think too much, I find there's just a hole,"
But before she went, she left a son,
He says, "Dad, you're not the only one,
Maybe love is just a requiem for the soul..."

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

Oh, do you still feel small?
Just a speck of life on an ocean wave,
Does it pull us all?
Does it pull us all?

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

P/S - Enough with those bleak and gloomy posting.

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
4:27 AM
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Buckle Up

It has been an emotional roller coaster ride last few weeks. I almost went into sulk that day. I received the most uneasy news late one evening. I swallowed it hard. I mentally tried to make myself believe that everything was OK. Accepted it and go on with all the other pieces left but as the weekend approaches I felt so bad and so unworthy.

I needed to whinge, but didn't want to annoy anybody with my whingeing,but as we suppress those feeling it becoming very high in pressure.As a result I end up whining to everyone in the house.

I was supposed to enjoy the 'benefits' that come looking for me today but so much I wanted to celebrate it I only left feeling mix-up. But I really like it when I forget about it. I felt happy.

So guys, what do you expect of life you living in?
Seriously...
What do you really really expect?

I used to have this vivid utopia of how I want to lead my life. Perfect

But soon enough I realize that life is never a bed of roses.

Life was never that easy. Especially to built people perception towards us being 'us'. It's the hardest.

Looks at all those in the news. The hardship and blood they shed for an idea of independent.

On a smaller scale, we experience how hard life is every single day. How hard it was to wake up everyday and take the journey to work. The traffic, people swearing, and all sorts of things make it a 'fight' to go to work.
At work, where people belittle your ability, makes stories to put you down, back stabbed. It really is a battle day in day out.

But dreams keep up going. Make us shoved every negativity thrown at us. Make us feels alive that there is thousand of possibility that might comes our way that will make us better. Make us felt that deep down inside that I am OK.
Better still, I am more that OK...I am GOOD

On being very optimistic, must be coupled with awareness that life was never a bed of roses. Don't always buy the idea that doing good will gets a good return as well. We work hard but in return we also might fall a few hundred times before we succeed.

Like what Thomas Edison said

I have not failed 1000 times but instead I find 1000 of ways to make it work.

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